Another Darcy, another Man

So another version of pride and prejudice and another misery of my own.
I mean, the Indian Movie "Bride and Prejudice" another amazing Darcy and another very strong woman Lollita -I love the name by the way! 
Marah -my best friend- when she saw that I got that movie and the Classical version of Pride & prejudice featuring Colin firth, asked "Why do you do this to yourself?"... simply cause I love the book! It is my favorite of all time...
But it just drives me crazy how these movies portray personalities that can't exist in this world- as far as I know!
I mean there are many girls like Elizabeth, strong personality, sarcastic, loves reading, romantic and very intelligent... But in Mark's case! Come'on how many men there is who are successful, intelligent, confident and actually nice and loves to read! And does not think he is the SHIT -excuse my language...Where is that person JANE!
Lately the girls around me have been talking about how Men are not to be tolerated, you can't trust a man! 
I mean we're reaching this point when we think of men, we think! OH MY GOD! HELP 
Jane Austen in her Novel "Sense and Sensibility" wrote:  "The more I know of the world, the more I am convinced that I shall never see a man whom I can really love. I require so much!"
And now I can gladly say at 2:30 a.m on February 7th, that I do not know what to say!!!
Allah yekoun fe el 3oun = Allah help us :) 

My new Amber Ring

Since my birthday was a couple of days ago, I got myself a present :)
Yup! a present from me to me; how sweet is that?
Anyways, I got this very beautiful silver ring with an amber stone -since it is my birth stone.
I do not really get the whole energy of the stones but I thought I would like something that has a meaning to it and I got it.
The dude in the store, said that the Aquarius people stones' are mostly moonstone and Amber.
I liked the amber more To be honest "sarahtan"
And I looked it up to see what it means;

"Amber has long been believed to be a stone of healing, used to alleviate problems of the stomach and liver. It has been used as a talisman for courage and self confidence. Amber is great at lifting the heaviness of burdens -- allowing happiness to come through."

"Technically a fossil and not a stone, amber is made from fossilized tree sap. Most often a translucent golden orange color, amber often contains insects, flowers and seeds that fell into the tree sap as it was hardening."

I love my new ring :) 

Did I mention that I really disliked that movie!

Okay! you know that movie "He's just not that into you"!
The movie that has the hottest actresses and actors.

We one the same page :)  yeah that movie... I truly dislike... did I tell you why?
Well how can I put it nicely; I think it is a sexist movie that encourages patriarchy and underestimates women self-esteem and self-respect.
You have to see the movie to grasp the idea I am discussing here.
The whole movie, women are helpless creatures that are controlled by the desire to have  men in their lives.
Simply, telling every female watcher that you have to wait for the man to do all the moves, and most of the time you can do nothing about it except to sit and wait!
Well EXCUSE ME! What is THAT?
Women are as capable as men in handling relationship issues and when a woman calls a man after a date, why should he be intimidated except for the fact that he has issues?!
Let us please, if are going to act all modern and not gender oriented society be able to handle our speeches and to be able to send a message to the young women out there that their lives are more than just a man and a couple of messages on the answer-machine...

Things to do when I am DONE :)

You know how you start thinking about what will you do when you are done with finals?
Well Let us just say I am doing this right now, I am day dreaming when I do not have to day dream any more and put those silly dreams into action :)
So here is a list of things I will do once I am done with the finals inshaa Allah :)
1. minimize my facebook addiction to only an hour in total a day! I think this would be a good start so I do not get withdrawal symptoms
2. Read the books on my reading list, those I bought and did not read yet
3. Excercise like crazy everyday until I drop basically, I have a wedding coming up & I have to be ready inshaa Allah
4. Read more poetry, I think I am liking poetry in this stage in my life and I think I should use this till it fades
5. Research more about philosophy, since it is really interesting
Okay I am starting to freak out here, why is my fun list mainly reading and researching, Shit I think this academic life is growing on me...
Number six is going to be fun 6. DISCOVER LEBANON
7. Go biking everyday in the morning, even if it is raining :)
8. Listen to more Jazz music, I love the genre and I know nothing about it
9. Go to the Lebanese National Museum
10. Go to Faraya and not SKII :) I will try to snow board this time, maybe this will work =)

Where are you?

Woke up
Where are you?
I was dreaming of you?
Back to sleep
You
I smile
A hug
I had a nightmare
what?
I woke up you were not there
Do not worry
A kiss on the forehead
Am here
No Worries
Go back to sleep
I sleep
Wake up
Where are you?

Play List!

I have been working for finals and the final projects of a couple of classes.
And since when I enjoy what I am working on, I usually have nice music on.
So this is a recommendation of artists that are simple AWESOME.
1. who can it be BUT Kathem El saher :) ? I love the day I started listening to him and adoring his voice and ofcourse Nezar Qabani's words... the perfect combination
2. Jean Marie Riachi, a new discovery, but I like how he composes the oldies into very hip jazzy songs, we all LOVE good JAZZ music ;p
3. Fairouz, she is always here. If I am in the mood, not in the mood, she is my favourite, I should move her to number one, but since now I am listening to Kathem I had him number one on this list; but in my heart my number one is always FAIROUZ :)
4. Edith Piaf; she brings calmness to my surroundings and optimism to my wildest dreams. Indeed, La Vie en Rose Piaf ;)
5. Did I ever admit that I love Angham? I do... she has great emotions put into her performances.
6. Enrico Macias; we get each other... J'ai quitte mon pays
7. Sting... do I have to say more... akeed la2

Ithaca by Cavafi

Today in Creative Writing class our teacher gave us this poem by Cavafi. The poem is called Ithaca and it is without doubt one of the best poems I have ever read.
To me it represented the life ahead and the journey; what we shall take till we achieve our dreams.
My favourite verse is:

Ithaca gave you the beautiful Journey;

without her you would not have set upon the road

Here is the poem, hope you would find it as inspiring as I did :)

Ithaca

As you set out for Ithaca

hope your road is a long one,
full of adventure, full of discovery.
Laistrygonians, Cyclops,
angry Poseidon--don'nt be afraid of them:
you'll never find things like that on your way
as long as you keep your thoughts raised high,
as long as a rare excitement
stirs your spirit and your body
Laistrygonians, cyclops
wild Poseidon--you won't encounter them
unless you bring them along inside your soul,
unless your soul sets them up in front of you

Hope your road is a long one.
May there be many summer mornings when,
with what pleasure, what joy,
you enter harbours you are seeing for the first time;
may you stop at Phoenician trading stations to buy fine things.
Mother of pearl and coral, amber and ebony,
sensual perfume of every kind-
as many sensual perfumes as you can;
and may you visit many Egyptian cities to learn and go on learning from their scholars.

Keep Ithaca always in your mind.
Arriving there is what you're destined for,
but don't hurry the journey at all,
better if it lasts for years,
so you're old by the time you reach the island,
wealthy with all you've gained on the way,
not expecting Ithaca to make you rich.

Ithaka gave you the marvelous journey.
Without her you wouldn't have set out.
She has nothing left to give you now.
And if you find her poor, Ithaca won't have fooled you.
Wise as you will have become,
so full of experience,
you'll have understood by then
what these Ithacas mean.